Thursday, November 1, 2007

What I'm Up To

I've been mostly offline the last few weeks--just been popping in once a day to check e-mail, the news, and sometimes a quick scan of the blogs. We had a revival last week and I wanted to spend my time focusing in on God's message. I still am. This week, I'm still digesting it all, but I'm also doing some seasonal cleaning. I've been purging the household again of all the things I never use, wear, or read. I've especially taken on our office/storage room that had unfortunately become a catch-all for things we didn't know where else to put. I presented the fruit of my labor this evening as I hauled at least 10 trash bags full to the curb.

As good as that feels, the greatest thing I have to report is that I've gotten through a spiritual roadblock. I'd come to a point where I felt closer to God than ever before; yet at the same time, I felt further away than I've ever been. I discussed it with the dude one afternoon last week. We both felt that I've been under spiritual attack the last several months, and that was confirmed when I shared with him some other things that were going on.

So I asked the dude... "What do I do? The only thing that pops into my head is the verse that says, 'Resist the devil and he will flee from you.'" The dude was kind enough to first tell me what verse I was quoting (James 4:7, because I couldn't remember), and then point out the sentence before that says, "Submit therefore to God." We prayed together about it, and that afternoon was the beginning of my breakthrough. In the days that followed, I started realizing all the ways I was not submitting to God -- all the areas in my life that I was trying to put myself in the driver's seat. I'm sad to say that it's been going on a long time. I'm not even sure when I started doing it. But with God's help, I'm working through it.

And that's where I am.